Sunday, October 18, 2009

Disclaimer: I feel like complaining!

I often don't complain about this because overall, I'm content, but lately I'm getting sick of this...being single. Seriously...what happened to all the good guys? Yes, I know, I know, they are either married or gay is the saying I always hear. But honestly. I'm 27 years old. I really am overall content with where my life is and what I've achieved in my life, but there are days like today where I wish I had someone. I wish I had that person to just lay on the couch and enjoy a day of football. I wish I had that person that I could just say "hey want to go get some dinner" and head off. I wish I had that person that after a really rough day at work, I could go home knowing his arms were there for a hug and a "everything is going to be okay."

I went to dinner a couple weeks ago with a friend I've known for quite some time (over 5 years). We were discussing being single and the frustrations of most of our friends being married and some having children. I'm sick of getting wedding invitations that say "Amy and guest." I don't do the bar thing, I don't do the clubbing thing.

I remind myself that I am a strong, independent person who has accomplished a lot on her own. Is that the problem? I am not ashamed of being independent or being a huge sports fan or being able to live by myself, but there are today....where I just wish I had that someone. I don't think I'm asking for much either. I just want someone who is sure of himself, has a sense of humor, is honest, and can handle some sarcasm. Okay, so there's more than that, but I don't think I should have to lower my standards to find that someone. I'm also not someone who thinks there is that one perfect person for me...I believe there are potentially lots of them, but I apparently just am nowhere close to finding of them.

Anyway, so today I complain. Tomorrow I know I will wake up and move along like I always do. And as much as people will comment on how strong am I or how independent I am, I know that there are times when I come home and wish I didn't have to be.

I did put a disclaimer before reading this, but I feel better. I complained. I'm not perfect.

Friday, October 09, 2009


Stress is both a positive and a negative. Without any stress, many people can lack motivation to accomplish things. Too much stress and it can cause a variety of things. Just the right amount and most people function normally. Well, lately I've been on the too much stress end. I've felt just really run down, tired, and all around out of it. I spent all of last weekend on the couch getting up for whatever I absolutely needed.

My job is stressful. I don't think many people would disagree with that. The difficult part is that the stress never goes away, it all depends on how it's managed. Well, there are times when my ability to manage the stress leaves due to the overwhelming amount of work I have. So, I'm working on that.

So that's why I've been MIA lately (read: like the last 6 months!) So I'm hoping I'm on the path to figuring this all out and being more social again :)

How's everyone else feeling lately?