Saturday, July 06, 2013

Hello, is this thing on?'s been forever since I've blogged.  As I say about a lot of happens.  Here's a sneak peak into what has been going on the past month....

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Is this thing on?

March 13, 2013...that's apparently how long it took me to write another post.  They say life gets crazy and things get forgotten and this was definitely one thing that got thrown by the wayside.  I had someone read my blog and comment that I should post more often and my mom recently asked me when the last time I posted was....I didn't realize it was 2011!  Wow how times change and flies!  Although not necessarily on when you're having fun.

Life has definitely changed.  I was living near Milwaukee, had a live in boyfriend....I then moved in Chicago (and loved the city) but broke up with the boyfriend and then couldn't afford to stay in Chicago.  So I'm back in my hometown looking for work and attempting to stay sane through all of these changes.

Now let me just say that I hate change.  I know it's inevitable and I'm resigned to the fact that it happens every day however, I still don't like it.  Change gives me the creeps.  A new computer system at thanks.  A new way of having to do something, not for me.  I'll do it but don't expect me to be happy about it.  That being said I've had a LOT of change in the past few months and it's got me thinking.  Who the heck said growing up was fun?  I say it's a trap!  Don't grow's a trap!  Now yes, there are good things about growing, not having a curfew? 

So I once again find myself picking up the pieces and attempting to make things work through change.  Sometimes I think someone thinks it's really funny to mess with me and give me more change than I would EVER want.  But there is one good thing about change and having to figure things find out who your true friends are and what family really means.  I love my parents and am very close to them, but they have been absolutely wonderful to me through all of this even when I've been snappy, out of it and sometimes just not myself at all.  Through it all, they have been there and been willing to help out however they can.  I have also found that I have a small group of really great friends.  I've never been one that has needed or wanted a ton of friends and they say when times get tough, you find out who is really your friend.  I have found that to be true time and time again. 

So my head is up, I'm applying for jobs and I'll get through this.  Just another test in this trap of adulthood.  They always think you have it bad, just look at the person who has no place to live.  I'm incredibly grateful for what I have and am looking forward to getting back on my feet and forging ahead!!!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Over a year later....

Life has a way of catching up with you. It's amazing as I sit here and write to think about everything that has happened in the past year...and not just in my life. I think about friends that have gotten married, had babies and some who have done both in the that year's time. I've done more traveling, experienced new things (love sushi now after refusing to ever try it!), and have made and lost friends.

I still travel for FL frequently with the hope and goal of moving there some day (sooner rather than later). I have now experienced NYC, Baltimore, DC and Annapolis. I got to go to a national confernce through work that was in Orlando and then extended the trip to visit with family. I also got to personally experience how fast life can be taken away...or so you think. My grandma, who is 85, was up here visiting in June when she got sick. By the time she was flying back to FL, she could barely stand on her own. She went to the dr and was treated for pneumonia. A short while later, she couldn't breathe well and went to the hospital and was admitted. She was doing well and was getting ready to be discharged, when she suffered a double cardiac arrest. She was put on a ventilator and the family was told that she most likely would not make it through the night. We got my mom a flight down there the following morning and she was with her mom. The next day after my mom got there, when she arrived at the hospital, my Grandma was sitting up in the bed....ventilator out, asking what everyone was doing that day. The drs could not explain it and could not believe it. She was discharged a few days later and is doing great. It is something that cannot be explained except that we are very blessed that she is still with us and has gotten her spunk back! I was lucky to be going down there for a conference anyway so was able to see her and help her when she returned home. She's gaining her strength back every day and is a walking miracle to us :)

I'm still working at the same job, although I'm looking elsewhere. Unfortunately, I'm struggling with my current position with a supervisor who does not value anything any of her employees do. My position is stressful enough without feeling supported. I don't expect my supervisor to be my friend, but I do expect some support. So it's been a struggle lately of staying sane in a complicated situation. Last October, my agency had everyone re-apply for our positions as they were "restructuring" the agency and the job duties were new. I was lucky to retain a position but it's been stressful and confusing attempting to learn the new positions with higher case loads and no understanding. So cross your fingers that I'll find something else (perferably in FL!) that will be a great match.

So...since it's been a year....what's new with everyone else????

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Adventures, Decisions and Life....

Wow, has it really been since January? Life flies...even when you aren't always having fun! Since I've posted, I've been to FL twice, celebrated my 28th birthday, lost a family member, had a visit from my aunt, attended a wedding and been working a ton! makes me tired just thinking about it.

I have fallen in love with FL. The fact that it's warmer all year round, there's no snow and you can actually feel warm when you walk outside is a huge advantage. I've done a lot of thinking about my life and where I want to go and what I want to do. I do really love my job right now, but I remind myself that my job is not my life nor do I want it to be. I'm still single and am not really happy with where I'm living or the area. I haven't found a place where I really feel like it's "home." Now I fully realize that when I'm in FL, I'm on vacation with no work responsibility and it's all about fun. But it's an option. I celebrated my birthday in FL this year and had a blast. I finally ate at Bonefish Grille (which was DELICIOUS), did some shopping, went out, and visited with family. It was a great time.

Life continues to be busy. I feel like I'm working too much but don't know how to accomplish everything in less time than I'm putting in so it gets frustrating. I'm really loving the co-workers I have right now and the families I'm working with so that definitely helps. The kids I'm working with right now (for the most part) have been great and I've really enjoyed getting to know them.

It's baseball season again so I have been going to games and watching as many as I can. I don't know what it is about baseball but I just love it! My dad and I are going to another game on Sunday and I'm so excited. It's quite an experience to be at a game and jsut to take in everything going on around you. I know plenty of people who don't enjoy it but that's definitely not me :)

Other than that, just normal day-to-day things. I've been working out again and I'm loving it. I didn't realize how much I missed it until I started going consistently again. I currently have a sinus infection so unfortunately I haven't been going as much recently, but hope to be back at it soon!!!!

Hope everything's going well with all of you. Sorry for the really really delayed writing!

Sunday, January 03, 2010


Remember when 2010 seemed so far away? I still remember being so excited for 2000 because it was the year I would graduate high school and then start college in the fall. It was this infamous year where nothing was going to work (Y2K), and it was the start of a new millenium. Here we are though...2010. Wow.

I have had the wonderful opportunity to spend quality time with many people over this holiday break. I've also been lucky to have been off work since the 24th. I've done some traveling and spent time with friends. I have to say that I've had some great conversations and gotten on a variety of topics. I rang in the new year with some friends and have spent some time just relaxing and reflecting on the past year. Although I don't feel as though I "accomplished" many things over the last year, I do feel more at peace with many things around me. As I've reflected, I've realized that I have many reasons to be thankful. I have wonderful parents that only want me to be happy (whatever that may bring), friends who support me and allow me to be my silly, sarcastic self, I have a job (and that alone I am thankful for), I have a place to live, and I am overall pretty healthy.

Over the past year, I have made new friends and lost touch with others. It still amazes me how people are sometimes just brought into your life for short periods of time. Others you feel as though they are brought into your life at just the right time and give you exactly what you didn't know you needed. I am not a very religious person and honestly, I'm not really sure what I believe in, but I know that I believe in being a good person and for me, that's good enough. So to start out this year, I am thankful for what I have and for what I can continue to have in my life. I know that I'll continue to strive to do good in my life and to continue to help others in my job. I will continue to travel (already have a trip planned this month!) and continue to be open to finding someone to share all those things with.

What are you thankful for?

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Back from vacation!

Well, my vacation was a success. I was about at my breaking point the day before my vacation and just kept talking to myself that I was leaving the next day. When I got on the plane, I felt such a sense of relief. Relief that I could just be myself without having to worry about work, bills, drama, etc. I had one of the most relaxing vacations I can remember. I didn't do anything spectacular or even what some people would consider fun, but I can tell that when I got back, I feel more like myself again. People at the office yesterday were even commenting that I seemed different. I'm not feeling tired like I had been and I finally don't feel sick. I'm hoping that my next vacation isn't as far away :)

I also want to wish everyone a belated Happy Thanksgiving. I was laying outside watching football for most of the day--enjoying the weather and being around family! I hope you all were able to enjoy the Holiday as well!

Monday, November 23, 2009


I don't know that I've ever said what I do in detail...however, lets suffice it to say that it's stressful. Along with that stress comes getting sick more often, feeling tired a lot of the time, and just not being with it all the time. Because of this, the agency I work for, gives 4 weeks of vacation when you start. I really appreciate this vacation time. We also have a "use it or lose it" policy for vacation. I was disappointed about this at first, but after working there almost 2 years, I get it. I need 4 weeks of vacation to stay sane (and at times, come back from being insane). So I leave tomorrow...I'm headed on vacation for a week.

I need it. I know people say they "need" vacation and to get away....I honestly do. These past few months have been trying...not just because of work but also because of thinking a lot about my life path (as talked about in previous posts) and just not feeling myself lately. This is the longest vacation I've taken in a while. I've done long weekend, but haven't done a week since I graduated grad school.

So I'm hoping to come back with less stress..I realize that some of the things I've been stressed about will be here when I get back, I'm just hoping to come back with a different stress level to be able to look at the situations in a different way and not "feel" them so hard. So have a great Thanksgiving everyone and enjoy your family and friends if you are spending it with them!