Sunday, April 26, 2009

Life (really does just) Happen(s)

Celebrating birthdays haven't been the most fun lately. The realization of getting older and life not turning out the way I had planned it makes birthdays not as much fun. This birthday was different. I think I've finally realized that life really does just happen. I received a small note from someone on my birthday that I've gone from 10 to 27 so quickly. I stopped to think of everything I've done in those 17 years. Although life hasn't turned out the way I thought, I have accomplished a lot in my 27 years and it's almost fun to look ahead and think of everything else that I can still accomplish. I still have goals and dreams and I still have a lot of this world to see yet.

I have friends and family who stand beside me through it all. I can be quite a pain at times, and they are still there. It speaks volumes to the types of people I surround myself with. In my 27 years, I have realized who my true friends and realized how important it is to surround yourself with those people and not the people who bring you down. I have also learned what is important in life. It's not about what you have, but who you are sharing it with. I love the laughter of a child and the smile on my parent's face when I've managed to surprise them. I also love the quiet of being by myself, but then hearing the ringer of my best friend calling to say hi.

Overall, I am content. Nope, things differently haven't gone the way I had planned them, but then, who has a life that hasn't thrown curve balls? That's part of life and I am embracing those curve balls...they have gotten me where I am today. And I would say that today isn't too bad.

Friday, April 17, 2009

I can rock with the best of them!

I love Guitar Hero. I will admit it. I played it once and I was hooked. A friend of mine had gotten it and convinced me to play with him. That was all it took. After getting done playing with him, I went out and bought it. It has become an obsession. I have no qualms about spending two hours playing Guitar Hero and hoping I don't get booed off instead of doing laundry or putting away my dishes. I love everything from picking the band name, to making my rocker chick, to playing. It's just fun.

With next Tuesday being my birthday, we're doing a semi-celebration at my parent's house tomorrow. I'm excited because I brought my Guitar Hero up and am hoping to play! I'm going to see if I can even get my mom and/or dad to play. It should be a blast!

I was very excited today when I went to the grocery store to see watermelon!!!! I know it's getting nice out when I see that. It's going to be 70 here today and it couldn't have come at a better time. The cold weather was getting my spirits done. I need warmth. I don't like the humidity but I just like feeling warm without having 22 layers and 16 blankets on! :)

Well, I hope everyone has a great weekend--I am sure I will!!!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Easter weekend

I'm not a religious person. I went to Catholic school from middle school through high school. When I went to college, I "experimented" with different religions, but just never felt comfortable or like I fit anywhere. After college, I attended a few different churches, but again never felt right. So as of today, I don't attend church and I feel a lot more at peace then when I did. I never fit in at Catholic churches and also left feeling guilty or as if I would never be able to achieve what the church talked about. That's not a great feeling when you're leaving church. There are also many things I don't agree with within the Catholic religion, but I won't get into those.

Anyway, as it is Easter tomorrow, I am happy. Not because I went to church and prayed, but because this weekend I have been surrounded by family and friends. That is what I believe in. I believe in being happy and surrounding yourself with people who love you. I have a lot of questions about "religion" but I do think I am spiritual. I believe in being a good person and loving with all I have. Not that I get those right every day, but it is still what I strive to accomplish on a daily basis.

So Happy Easter everyone! Whatever you believe in or however you celebrate, I hope it's a great day. Take some time to relax!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009


I am often amazed at people who don't take vacations. Oftentimes, I will get so wrapped up in life and work that I no longer feel like myself. It's at those points that I know I just need a break and some time for me. Those are times when I know I need a vacation. A vacation to me is getting away. Since I have a home office, it's often difficult to stay at home because work is always around me. So last Thursday, I took off for Arizona. I spent 6 wonderful days (two days for traveling) in Tucson and absoultely loved it. It was in the 80s every day, and on Monday, I layed in the sun for 4 hours. I can't tell you what that did for me. As I was flying back today, I thought about the time I had for myself, how much I did not think about work, and how relaxed I felt.

I will be the first to admit that I don't handle stress well. I am also a perfectionist when it comes to my work. I don't like things late, I don't like things done wrong and I want to do it right. That can be very overwhelming in the profession I'm in.

So I sit here writing this fully realizing that I can't go on vacation every month (although how awesome would that be?) so I need to make some changes in my life in order to not get the point I was at before the vacation. I'm not sure what that entails yet.

The one thing that vacation does for me is clear my head. I'm able to relax and clear my head in order to make decisions that I normally would not make clearly due to the stress and inability to think clearly. I did a lot of thinking about things and have come to some conclusions. And the best part is that I'm at peace with what I've decided. I'm happy...let's just hope I can keep it going!